I SEE YOU

I smell the cruelity of life floating in blood,

I see it fit that you trusted a stranger and have forsaken i,

Born from your clay line,

I see you lying through your teeth,

Hugging me when you actually detest i,

I see you talking behind my back, surely enough i do get satisfaction,

I see you advertizing my weakness, i guess i was not foolish enough to trust you,

I see you oppressing the less priviledged all in the name of titles.

I see you are the Boss that is why it is only fair to bark at me.

I hear you call me friend and i am also sure you know me well enough to know when i last shaved my privates,

I see that you are a christian, you keep your word and that is why you didn't call me even when you said you would,

I see you laughing at my flaws, i am sure you are perfect.

I see you becoming your true self after receiving the ring, that makes me proud of you,

I see that you see beyond my race, perhaps i would smile if you knew the color of my soul,

I see so many faces, so many colors,

Yet in all that i see not i

I see you but can't find me.

I close my eyes and there i find me.

All a while you are blinded by what you see, hear and know about me,

But you still haven't asked me why,

Why i close my eyes,

What causes me to say the things i say,

What hurts me deeply,

You simply can't

Because you actually do not know whether my heart is there or not.